Every year, I welcome the year with excitement. The new year ushers in a fresh start; it’s like hitting a RESET button. The reality though is that we get pumped up only for the first few months, then our habits continue to revert back to how we were the year before.

Why do we stumble and revert back to old habits?

I’m not sure about other people, but I guess for myself, these are the reasons:

#1 — It’s about ME being scared of a lot of things.

I’m scared of what other people will think of me. I’m scared that they might think that I’m not the same person anymore. I’m scared of being mediocre. I’m scared of failure. I’m scared of financial instability. I’m scared that my insecurities will haunt me again. ETC. ETC.

This year though, I think I’ve mustered up enough courage. It’s ironic that I got this courage from past fears that I have overcome.

And this year, I realized that. I realized that in order to overcome all the fears that I have, I need to face them with a new mindset — a belief that fear is not something that stops us, but something that makes us stronger. Hey, I’ve failed before, and I’m still here, right?

#2 — It’s probably because, I’ve been doing it for the longest time and find comfort in it.

I know that I’ve been telling a lot of people to say “no” to things that you don’t have time for, for things that are of lesser priority and to things that you don’t want to do. The reality though for a lot of people (and for ME) is that I find it hard to let go of things that I am used to doing or saying.

We often find comfort in the things that we’ve been doing for the longest time. I think for 2019, it’s the year to assess if you really need to do or say these things still (because you probably and REALLY love doing these things) or is it time to let go and break the habit?

#3 — It’s probably because I don’t have a time limit for myself.

At work and at home, I am a very patient person. But since I am but human, I will obviously lose my mind if something is not delivered on time or get frustrated when goals or aspirations are not met.

The thing about goals for yourself or setting New Year’s Resolutions is that most of us make plans that are not time-bound. Yes, I get that life is something that we need to enjoy, but what we want to avoid is that we trap ourselves in a cycle of “goal setting – implementation – frustration!”

We need to be a SUCCESS at some point, or at least feel successful. This will make us constantly strive to be better versions of ourselves.

So with this, we need to start being impatient with ourselves NOW! We need to give ourselves a timeline — a deadline.

So there. Well, I’ve started putting into action my “one word” for 2019, which is to Introspect. I think I’m well aware of the reasons why it’s difficult for me to drop some old habits, and to start anew.

Let’s see how this goes for me. I really hope I let go of my old, negative habits and feelings.

I hope I get over (some parts of) you, 2018. 😄

As a professional blogger, I need to be observant. Observant of the things happening to different people, observant of what the latest trends are and observant of what will come out in the market and the different innovations that products bring. That’s one skill as a “freelancer” that I have and I need.

This past year (2018) though, I’ve been looking out a lot. And looking at other people’s lives didn’t make me feel good, and it just made me compare my life with them. Obviously, I’m smart enough to know that what you see in social media is not the entire reality. But, looking out still didn’t make me feel good about myself.

Aside from looking out, I was so caught up with just doing things for the sake of just doing it. I got caught up with my day to day tasks as an entrepreneur and a freelancer that I forgot to take care of myself. I also “semi” forgot how feeling passionate about my craft was. I don’t know if this was just the feeling of being burnt out, or if this was being frustrated that things didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to, or if it was just me being impatient, but I hated the feeling.

I’m not a complainer. I just end up feeling tired. Although, I am thankful for having a super duper great support system (family and friends who are uberly great!), but I end up tired and feeling sad about my life.

The thing that helped me a lot this year are our prayers at night and my quiet time in the mornings when I run. In the evening, we take turns in the family to say what we are thankful for. Then in the morning, I love the stillness. I love that everything is so quiet, and it would be just me and my thoughts.

I’m grateful that I just need to look out my window to feel inspired!

So my resolution for this year for both my personal and professional life as a freelancer and entrepreneur is to do more looking in rather than looking out. I promise to do more introspection. I know that this will lead me to become more self-aware and self-awareness is the key to happiness and success. Why? When you truly know who you are, you capitalize on your strengths. You become happier with yourself, and when you are happy, you make other people happy.

So this 2019, I promise to:

  • Look at my strengths and weaknesses again and use it or act on it.
  • Try new things.
  • Blog about what I feel and what I think about things more frequently.
  • Set aside time to improve myself and my craft.
  • Spend more time with family and friends and have deeper conversations.
  • Build deeper relationships with people.
  • Continue to fix systems and process for my freelancing career and my business so that I free up time — time that I can use as “ME-Time”

I know that by doing this, I’ll be a better wife, mom, freelancer, entrepreneur, etc. I’ll be good at whatever role I need to fulfil in 2019.

I wished I lived in a cooler country, or better yet, I wish this country had cooler weather (I love living in the Philippines). The reason why I thought about this is that I want to change the way I dress this 2019. Watching the Korean drama What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim has made me rethink my wardrobe choices. If you haven’t seen this Korean drama on Netflix yet, sharing with you some of her outfits in different episodes.

Image from: https://www.soompi.com/article/1204381wpp/7-chic-styles-whats-wrong-secretary-kim-inspire-office-look

I love the flowy blouses and the pencil cut skirts. I’m sort of sick and tired of wearing jeans and shirts. haha! The reason why I revert back though to shirt and jeans is the fact that it’s very comfortable. First of all, I need to be ready to bend down to tie my daughter’s shoe, chase her when she suddenly wants to race and to easily change my top (jeans go with anything!) when something spills.

And the fact that we own a start-up company doesn’t help. In our company, anyone can come in any attire they choose. The only rule is that they have to dress up for events and meetings. But most of the time, people come in in jeans, shirt, etc. and we don’t really mind.

For 2019 though, I want this year to be different. I want to dress for success! As Zig Ziglar said…

You cannot climb the ladder of success dressed in the costume of failure.

Zig Ziglar

Wait… wait! That may be too harsh of a saying since my jeans isn’t really what I’d consider a costume of failure 😄 But, you get what I mean!

So anyway, i’m looking through Lazada now and here are the pencil cut skirts that I’m seriously looking at buying.

https://www.lazada.com.ph/products/syxianzi-spring-and-summer-new-products-skirt-high-waist-skirt-sheath-dress-for-women-pencil-skirt-professional-large-size-i127728209-s136536000.html

https://www.lazada.com.ph/products/syxianzi-spring-and-autumn-skirt-high-waist-sheath-pencil-skirt-front-slit-in-skirt-large-size-women-i207643302-s263112382.html?

https://www.lazada.com.ph/products/large-size-bag-skirt-female-spring-and-new-korean-version-of-the-split-step-skirt-was-thin-waist-and-long-sections-wild-skirts-intl-i133159337-s146814895.html?spm=a2o4l.searchlist.list.60.7dee25628OxzFa&search=1

How about you? What will be your personal style this 2019? 🙂